Absolutely not it. That's Weiss' job, last I heard.
Thanks for understanding, Neo. I just feel like it really will help me feel less awkward about stuff if I know that we're both kind of finding our way through this at the same time. Don't get me wrong, the confidence is... REALLY sexy. But sometimes a girl gets too deep in her own head. You know how it is. Well, maybe not exactly. But you know how to handle it when someone ends up going too deep. And call me crazy, but I think your worst is still gonna look pretty good.
I'd like to think my worst is pretty damned sexy, yep! But don't worry. I'm going to try and do better, but remind me if I look 'too perfect.' It was kind of a survival tactic, so it's hard to break.
I know. I get it. We have a lot of survival tactics that we have to break out of together, both of us. Because we're finally not just surviving anymore. We're living. And we were meant to live.
And I think you know from the way the apartment was when you got here. I'm good at putting up an appearance that everything's great, but 'living' isn't my strong point. You're helping with that a lot, and I love you for it.
It's weird how much it helps, having just one other person around here who cares so much. I'm glad I could be high maintenance enough to convince you to make this place look a little more lived-in. I want both of us to be able to find a better life together, and showing me that I'm actually worthy of your love is one of the... countless things I love you for.
You really are the perfect level of high maintenance, Emerald. You demand quite a bit out of me, but it's never really too much to ask, and that helps. But trust me. You've helped me just as much in your own way. You've reminded me that I don't have to live in the shadow of a friend's death. That I have a right to survive, and to be happy again.
Hey. We both have shadows that we're working our way out from under. We have lives to live and I'm not stopping until we're living our best lives together. What else is all the surviving we've done supposed to be for?
I really hope I'm not demanding too much, though, uh. I don't want to be that kind of girlfriend. But if it ever does get too much I know you'll tell me.
"It builds character," haha. But seriously, yeah we both have our shit more together than we've had in a while at least. But you aren't demanding too much of me. I'll definitely let you know if I have to, Em. Promise. You do the same for me.
I will. I promise. I don't want to keep secrets from you anymore. Which was the point of that whole last conversation we had, just in case that got lost under everything else. ;)
Gods, that really happened, huh. Like, okay, I know that we already talked about how I felt overwhelmed but oh my gods? That was. Really good for my first time.
Let's just try to be understanding. We've lived for our whole lives wrapped in secrets. Sometimes it can be hard to remember what the other knows. There's bound to be a surprise or twelve, but we'll get there.
You were pretty damned amazing too, you realize, right? But did I manage to successfully ruin you for everyone? Because I'm absolutely going to try and one up myself next time.
Ugh. You definitely ruined me, I'll tell you that much. Usually I only pass out like that after I spent all day fighting. Glad you liked what I brought. Only the best for you. I'll see if I can bring something new to the table next time to keep you on your toes. Or, you know, off them. Either way, it's gonna be one of the good kinds of surprises.
I'm working on it. Hard to know how to plan it best when I don't know every last detail of what you're into yet. I'll figure something out. Mark my words. We're gonna sound so much like cats in heat that they'll forget to call them.
And neither of us completely knows, which is part of the adventure! Heh, it's also part of the horror as we try to figure it all out and get it perfect.
Oh god, that one's good. I need to remember that. When I'm done finding a way to make a ruckus just for you.
Hey, don't discount the way a tiny little whisper can make me completely lose my mind. If there's one thing being a thief taught me, it's that sometimes the best way to get what you want is a laser-targeted strike right where you want to be. ...Not that that's half as flashy or loud as a giant explosion.
It's one of those tiny tricks I'm glad I learned. I don't need vocal chords to screw with you oh so badly. The subtle tricks are much better than explosions so many times. Better to target with.
You are so, so incredibly mean to me. And I love it. I'm glad you're gonna let the mask slip more. If I do something to make you blush, I want to be the one who sees it. And I want to be the only one who ever gets to see it.
Here, Emerald. Have a flustered picture of your girlfriend, looking beet red. Don't say she never gives Christmas presents. How can she tell it's real? There's tiny imperfections in the skin complexion you'd never see normally, and her hair's a little more disheveled than normal. Yep, definitely blushing.]
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That's Weiss' job, last I heard.
Thanks for understanding, Neo.
I just feel like it really will help me feel less awkward about stuff if I know that we're both kind of finding our way through this at the same time.
Don't get me wrong, the confidence is... REALLY sexy.
But sometimes a girl gets too deep in her own head. You know how it is.
Well, maybe not exactly. But you know how to handle it when someone ends up going too deep.
And call me crazy, but I think your worst is still gonna look pretty good.
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I'd like to think my worst is pretty damned sexy, yep!
But don't worry. I'm going to try and do better, but remind me if I look 'too perfect.'
It was kind of a survival tactic, so it's hard to break.
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We have a lot of survival tactics that we have to break out of together, both of us.
Because we're finally not just surviving anymore.
We're living.
And we were meant to live.
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I'm good at putting up an appearance that everything's great, but 'living' isn't my strong point.
You're helping with that a lot, and I love you for it.
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I'm glad I could be high maintenance enough to convince you to make this place look a little more lived-in.
I want both of us to be able to find a better life together, and showing me that I'm actually worthy of your love is one of the... countless things I love you for.
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You demand quite a bit out of me, but it's never really too much to ask, and that helps.
But trust me. You've helped me just as much in your own way.
You've reminded me that I don't have to live in the shadow of a friend's death.
That I have a right to survive, and to be happy again.
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We have lives to live and I'm not stopping until we're living our best lives together.
What else is all the surviving we've done supposed to be for?
I really hope I'm not demanding too much, though, uh. I don't want to be that kind of girlfriend.
But if it ever does get too much I know you'll tell me.
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But seriously, yeah we both have our shit more together than we've had in a while at least.
But you aren't demanding too much of me.
I'll definitely let you know if I have to, Em. Promise.
You do the same for me.
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I don't want to keep secrets from you anymore.
Which was the point of that whole last conversation we had, just in case that got lost under everything else. ;)
Gods, that really happened, huh. Like, okay, I know that we already talked about how I felt overwhelmed but oh my gods?
That was. Really good for my first time.
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We've lived for our whole lives wrapped in secrets.
Sometimes it can be hard to remember what the other knows.
There's bound to be a surprise or twelve, but we'll get there.
You were pretty damned amazing too, you realize, right?
But did I manage to successfully ruin you for everyone?
Because I'm absolutely going to try and one up myself next time.
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Usually I only pass out like that after I spent all day fighting.
Glad you liked what I brought. Only the best for you.
I'll see if I can bring something new to the table next time to keep you on your toes.
Or, you know, off them. Either way, it's gonna be one of the good kinds of surprises.
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I want to horrify our neighbors, haha.
I'm looking forward to this next surprise by the way.
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Hard to know how to plan it best when I don't know every last detail of what you're into yet.
I'll figure something out. Mark my words. We're gonna sound so much like cats in heat that they'll forget to call them.
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Heh, it's also part of the horror as we try to figure it all out and get it perfect.
Oh god, that one's good. I need to remember that. When I'm done finding a way to make a ruckus just for you.
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If there's one thing being a thief taught me, it's that sometimes the best way to get what you want is a laser-targeted strike right where you want to be.
...Not that that's half as flashy or loud as a giant explosion.
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I don't need vocal chords to screw with you oh so badly.
The subtle tricks are much better than explosions so many times.
Better to target with.
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I'm glad you're gonna let the mask slip more.
If I do something to make you blush, I want to be the one who sees it.
And I want to be the only one who ever gets to see it.
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Here, Emerald. Have a flustered picture of your girlfriend, looking beet red. Don't say she never gives Christmas presents. How can she tell it's real? There's tiny imperfections in the skin complexion you'd never see normally, and her hair's a little more disheveled than normal. Yep, definitely blushing.]
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You look really cute when you blush.
Thank you. For trusting me enough to let me see you like this.
It means a lot. It really does.
Let me know if you want me to delete that pic or if you're okay with me keeping it.
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That is absolutely yours. Keep it.
We'll just have to see about making each other blush more soon!
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Thank you, Neo. For trusting me.
You know it makes me feel an entire emotion when you say stuff like that.
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We won't know what hit us.
[Her little way of keeping a bit of levity in this.]